Ya know, I really DON'T want this blog to turn into a giveaway blog, although it seems to have done that! I have worked out a family schedule and now I have the time to work on this blog! I can do my giveaways and write meaningful blog posts for mamas out there!
My little girl turned 1 on February 3rd and it broke my heart. Is that horrible? I think it probably is! Don't get me wrong, I want her to grow up. Just not yet! My son is 3 and it just feels like I blinked and he went from being born and in my arms to being too tall and running around. I don't want her to do that! Not yet! I feel like maybe if I protest then it wont happen, but I know it will. I have to come to terms with the fact that I can't keep them little and they are going to grow up. No matter how many warnings I got about this happening, I never believed anyone! I know that sounds silly, because of course they are going to grow up, but I didn't think it would feel this fast. I was joking with my husband and saying that each one we add the year goes by faster then the last! I think it's true! We want to add a few more little ones to our family, and I cannot imagine how much quicker those years are going to feel.
Like I was saying, she turned 1 and I bawled my eyes out. I couldn't handle it and I still cant! I cry now just thinking about her little face and all the cute things she does and I just know I am going to blink and she's going to be 3, 6, 9...18. I pray to God every single day that I never forget her tiny face, or how she sticks her tongue out and dances to music. I pray that I never get dementia because I never want to forget. I wish I could tape my eyelids open so that I can't blink. I can't believe how fast she is growing up. Maybe it is harder with her because I know what happened with my son. I know he went from baby to 3 overnight and I just know she's going to as well!
I know all Moms go through this, but it just isn't fair! It's bittersweet how the moments that make me love being a mom also make me want to cry.
Ohhh mama, ur going to make me tear up! My little girl is 10 1/2 months. I was thinking to myself, in a week she'll be 11 and then only one more month till she turns one!
ReplyDeleteBut I hear ya, this year has gone by super fast... we'll "grieve" together!
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